I’m Tatiana, 27 years old, married and mother of 2, with 6 and 9.
I was mother with 17 and married with the father. He’s 13 years older than me and was always very correct and a good father and husband. After first shock, all my family accepted him very well.
I live in a small place, a small island, where most people knows each other and comment lives of everyone.
After my 2nd child my husband introduced me the cuckold-hotwife topic. It was not easy for me to understand everything. I understood I should try to be sexier and more attractive, take care better myself. In that moment, I started to go to the gym, I did laser hair removal, I started to wear sexy lingerie and use toys during our sex, watch porn and fantasise about other men. But I did it because him, to please him. I used to consider myself very openminded for doing oral and anal since I meet him with 16 years old. I used to think a lot in his pleasure.
One year ago, I started to meet discreetly for sex the photographer who did some photos of me. He’s white and much older but not totally vanilla and I feel safe with him, so I can let things go on… In last June I attended some kizomba dance classes and had for about one week a relationship with the instructor, a black man with 36 years old… I couldn’t imagine how much I wanted it…
Today, I understand I’m sexual submissive and I like men with power. I don’t need to pretend anymore this is not me… An older man with charm, a tall and strong man, a boss, a famous man, a rich man, a man with high confidence, a black man, they all keep my attention… and I love to have their attention too.
Today, I would say, a dominant older black man is, for me, the most attractive kind of men which join in one all that masculine power. I know not everything will be soft and kind with him, but be submissive for him that’s what attracts me too… It’s also risky and scary.
Kizomba is a sensual African dance and in those classes, I meet other black men living in the island. In fact, our group was small with 5 white women from 16-37 years old and 3 black men 25-45. Kizomba dress code says to women to be sexy… high heels, leggings and top is the standard and that’s how we were dressed. Of course, we were in a private room of a gym and nobody would be watching or criticizing us… Besides, all women/girls were sexy dressed, we look to be a bit shy, maybe afraid, but same time openminded and comfortable for being there with those men, learning their culture, accepting their hands holding us during dance, accepting the power of their eyes and their willing… In that discreet room, curiosity, attraction and desire were in the air, Interracial and some age gap seems to be natural for everybody. Obviously, we all thought about that. The true is, no matter our ages or who we were outside, in that room we were white females available for black males. In that moment becomes natural for me to know better the instructor…
I understand it’s more normal for white women than to white men to embrace African culture… That’s why BWNO is more about white women with black men… People can say we are being Africanised and blacked, but the true is also we want it and are happily building a better world.
In a small place, people talk…. But I’m doing the way… In this moment, I know which is my way…